I feel sick from crying and from trying not to cry.

[dangermousie]

This is a letter that's written both to you and to me at the same time. I might forget that I had ever written this letter...Or even this letter itself might disappear. For me or for you, this letter is written for whoever may live holding on to the memories. When I first happened to come into possession of this talisman, I was very curious about its cause and effect. At first, I thought that the realization of my dream was the effect. Shortly after, I thought meeting you was its effect. Then afterwards, I thought that beginning a new life in another world was the effect. But it's only now that I came to realize its effects. If the cause was me surviving, then me losing everything was the effect. My future. My honor. My values. My people. And you, too. In order to preserve my life, I had to give up an equivalent price. This only made sense. That I thought I could keep even one of those things was my own foolishness. How much more will I lose in order to repay the price? Not being able to see you anymore, I have now realized that even that was a luxury. Memories. Our memories. Memories. Losing them is the final price I must pay. I do not know what will happen now. Will we forget each other, or will we live unable to forget, forever in agony? If I have a final wish...it is to remember you. In a life without aims, to not even have those memories would be hell. And you...As for you...Even if you should happen to read this letter someday far in the future, I pray that you will not be able to realize whom it is for.



My. Heart. Is. Broken. I am not sure how I can survive time-travelling romantic angst. Seriously. Cannot cope. Eyes puffy. Throat hurts. Nose red. Traumatized.

Also, sorry, SUFBB, but you are going to have to share N1 drama of 2012 spot.

Comments

[mookiehyun.livejournal.com]

Of ALL the dramaz I'm so behind (and still kinda interested) and I havent got time to watch a wink of anything, I rewatched 15 just now.

If I can c w/ puffy pingpongd eyes, my tears r used up and should be pure blood now. While I totally can see how amazingly magically and well planned/thought out/brilliant the phone motif is, I'd rather it go down a notch and have a talisman...tie. And let that magically phone works in 2013. The tie is still a token of love, which they made a sweet lovely connection and it's not as demanding a suspension of disbelief. It gave me a good pause when it rang in Joseon and while I CAN process it later on and didnt hate it, my kneejerk is a long screech of WTF! It's asking too much fr little viewer me to take that leap of faith and process all of it while I'm beyond wrung out in feelings, drowning in tears and SO MUCH PAINNN to get all of it instantaneously, and I'm not patient enough to pause and process and I carried on watching the happy ending, and all of it took away the perfectness of the exp, of drama. It's too well thought out, too demanding and my emotions r too heightend to keep calm and think it through and through to appreciate. BUT now I can totally see it, but the magic of experiencing it unspoiled is gone, forever.

I still <3333 QIHM very much. The best I've seen since forever.

[joyce fung (from livejournal.com)]

maybe i'll have to go back and rewatch it all too.... gonna wait till my mom's ready to watch it with me =P

but yeah... i think a talisman necktie may have been an easier to digest alternative... (i've said what i could about the necktie on DB so i'll stop here haha) I'm really happy though that mookie and many others still lurv this drama! =D

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

I was excited for it, but I had no idea how wonderful it was going to be. I went into the finale utterly spoiled and still loved it.