I feel sick from crying and from trying not to cry.

[dangermousie]

This is a letter that's written both to you and to me at the same time. I might forget that I had ever written this letter...Or even this letter itself might disappear. For me or for you, this letter is written for whoever may live holding on to the memories. When I first happened to come into possession of this talisman, I was very curious about its cause and effect. At first, I thought that the realization of my dream was the effect. Shortly after, I thought meeting you was its effect. Then afterwards, I thought that beginning a new life in another world was the effect. But it's only now that I came to realize its effects. If the cause was me surviving, then me losing everything was the effect. My future. My honor. My values. My people. And you, too. In order to preserve my life, I had to give up an equivalent price. This only made sense. That I thought I could keep even one of those things was my own foolishness. How much more will I lose in order to repay the price? Not being able to see you anymore, I have now realized that even that was a luxury. Memories. Our memories. Memories. Losing them is the final price I must pay. I do not know what will happen now. Will we forget each other, or will we live unable to forget, forever in agony? If I have a final wish...it is to remember you. In a life without aims, to not even have those memories would be hell. And you...As for you...Even if you should happen to read this letter someday far in the future, I pray that you will not be able to realize whom it is for.



My. Heart. Is. Broken. I am not sure how I can survive time-travelling romantic angst. Seriously. Cannot cope. Eyes puffy. Throat hurts. Nose red. Traumatized.

Also, sorry, SUFBB, but you are going to have to share N1 drama of 2012 spot.

Comments

[village.livejournal.com]

OMG. OMG. Yes. Yes. This drama, this drama. Why am I repeating everything I'm saying? lol. It's just -- the last few episodes broke my heart into little pieces and after each episode I was done. The part that hurt the most was when he came back briefly for that second time and he looked down at the talisman and knew he was going to disappear again, and just the look on his face, the way he reached out to her -- Gah. I can't. Damn them. I think episode fifteen is better than the finale but still, they were all nearly perfect final episodes.

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

Yes, the bit when he reached out towards her but they couldn't even touch. But I think it was the letter that killed me, intercut with her crying in the rain. Or the scene in 16 when he was surrounded and just...you see him give up. Or maybe when he landed in Joseon for good in ep 15 and the look on their faces. 16 was wonderful (though the scene with the tie pretty much ended me - only in this drama would something so mundane become so romantic and then so horrifying and be sweet again by the end) and that ending in the theater was beyond incredible, but ep 15 was sheer perfection, the best ep of the incredible drama.

[village.livejournal.com]

When he reached for the tie I actually whispered, "no." LOL. I was all, don't do it. Don't do it. We can figure it out. It was absolutely heartbreaking to see him give up like that after watching him be so determined throughout the entire drama. And then that realization that a tie could be used to take a life -- that moment just killed me. I'm getting all emotional again.

And that's exactly how I feel about episode 15. It just had that perfect mix of emotion that's engulfing. It was pretty much a perfect episode. Top to bottom, this drama is really solid. Like there wasn't one episode in the bunch that I felt was weak. That's pretty impressive.

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

The tie thing killed me. And then he tells her "I missed the purpose of a tie so much I could die" or similar. Ahhhhh...