And I get more incoherent...
Apr. 28th, 2008 11:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dangermousieMaybe, if I hit my head repeatedly against the wall, it will be better.
My face is blotchy, my nose is swollen, my throat hurts and so does the pit of my stomach.
Why, thank you, episode 11.
And now, Hiroko, you trapped yourself. Because how can you go back after that? (I love that her impulsiveness is often her best quality but here it was the end).
You just cannot. (Even though I hate her actions, they were so realistic, at her age and situation, and I can so see her doing that).
And she knows now she was wrong and she just wrecked her happiness, everything she ever wanted, through nobody's fault but her own.
I started crying when she found him, slumped by the phone, and they went home and he showed her the painting of her, her smile the first time they met, and told her how he was going to propose when he finished it and he was so sweet but she told him she couldn't and he just asked 'why not?' and she was crying so badly, and (oh, I love how straightforward she is, even in such a horrible circumstances, where many other women would lie) she told him she betrayed him and his face...
And they are both crying, and he lets go of her hands and it's the end...
OMG, he wants her back anyway and he wrote a letter saying that and that he wants to get to know her all over again but stupid Ken hid it UGH.
And so she didn't know and came back to collect her things and he was so hopeful and she said she didn't want to stay and OMG I am sure he assumes she read the letter and it's her response.
'I love you. I will love you today, and tomorrow, and the day after that. Isn't it enough?' Oh Kohji. Thank you for making me bawl harder.
and she leaves anyway, and she says it's because this is hard but it's obviously not that, she loves him madly (see her break down later) but it's because she can't face him because the guilt is too great and oh, that letter would have made all the difference because it would have truly made her believe they could get past this...
Oh God, he asks her if he could keep the cat. And pretends it's a joke but it isn't. He really is utterly alone. (Which is doubly awful because he is such a tender person, really).
And she leaves and is bawling but I don't feel sorry for her. But OMG, nobody should look the way Kohji does, just sitting in the dark, completely gutted, weeping.
My face is blotchy, my nose is swollen, my throat hurts and so does the pit of my stomach.
Why, thank you, episode 11.
And now, Hiroko, you trapped yourself. Because how can you go back after that? (I love that her impulsiveness is often her best quality but here it was the end).
You just cannot. (Even though I hate her actions, they were so realistic, at her age and situation, and I can so see her doing that).
And she knows now she was wrong and she just wrecked her happiness, everything she ever wanted, through nobody's fault but her own.
I started crying when she found him, slumped by the phone, and they went home and he showed her the painting of her, her smile the first time they met, and told her how he was going to propose when he finished it and he was so sweet but she told him she couldn't and he just asked 'why not?' and she was crying so badly, and (oh, I love how straightforward she is, even in such a horrible circumstances, where many other women would lie) she told him she betrayed him and his face...
And they are both crying, and he lets go of her hands and it's the end...
OMG, he wants her back anyway and he wrote a letter saying that and that he wants to get to know her all over again but stupid Ken hid it UGH.
And so she didn't know and came back to collect her things and he was so hopeful and she said she didn't want to stay and OMG I am sure he assumes she read the letter and it's her response.
'I love you. I will love you today, and tomorrow, and the day after that. Isn't it enough?' Oh Kohji. Thank you for making me bawl harder.
and she leaves anyway, and she says it's because this is hard but it's obviously not that, she loves him madly (see her break down later) but it's because she can't face him because the guilt is too great and oh, that letter would have made all the difference because it would have truly made her believe they could get past this...
Oh God, he asks her if he could keep the cat. And pretends it's a joke but it isn't. He really is utterly alone. (Which is doubly awful because he is such a tender person, really).
And she leaves and is bawling but I don't feel sorry for her. But OMG, nobody should look the way Kohji does, just sitting in the dark, completely gutted, weeping.
