On messed-up boys

[dangermousie]

That was my reaction to ep 2 of Infernal Lover.

Our double-agent protagonist has just shot and killed his adopted father, to prove his loyalty to the bad guys! And before said Daddy keeled over, he told protagonist that he has made a good choice (to maintain his cover and get further up in the hierarchy).

I mean - I mean - I mean - there is not enough AAAAAAAAAAARGH in the world! I can't even say "get therapy" because that won't help.

Beat THAT family trauma, any other drama I've seen in recent memory!

I think that will be my manpain criteria now - "what, you are angsting? Did you have to shoot your father? Nope, then stop whining."

I confess I am not shipping protagonist with the heroine at all - I mean, there are damaged woobies love can fix, and then there is that. I think she and the cute sweet revolutionary guy who rescued her should get together. While protagonist gets his brain wiped and gets some major medication.

In news of slightly less messed-up heroes, who else has watched ep 5 of Summer Desire. So good! I wallow in the soapy shipness to the hilt. The thing is, ep 5 convinced me of two things: (1) Luo Xi and Xiamo would probably end up in a total trainwreck as their damage is too similar and (2) I desperately ship them. Desperately. They are so messed-up and gorgeous and sexy and vulnerable together.



The thing is, I am coming around more and more to the thought that Luo Xi is just irretrievaly damaged. Maybe that is why I want him to have happiness at the end the most - because he's the most broken one. I mean - his abandonment issues and insecurities - are kinda hard for me as a mommy to watch (these dramas are making me paranoid about my parenting :P). Like how he does not expect Xiamo to stick around when he comes home (even though she is his gf and earlier said she would) - his hand is shaking when he is pressing the bell, how he blows up at her over that whole newspaper/calls business - it's total insecurity and he himself realizes he is being absurd but he cannot stop. Or when he walks out of the bathroom and expects her to be gone after their fight, even though it wasn't such a bad fight at all. He may be famous and all but he has no inner sense of self-worth or security at all. He expects to be abandoned as a matter-of-course - his clinging and lashing out are both a result of that. Man, I wish I could find his horrible mother and strangle her through a computer screen - you do not NOT do that to a child, *****, ever.



His picking a fight/rubbing into Ou Chen's face that Xiamo chose him is also from the same source - it's as if it's himself he is reassuring.

I have no answer to the argument that Ou Chen is better for Xiamo (he is damaged, too, but in a complimentary, not similar way), but my heart is so very set on Luo Xi/Xiamo. I just want the two of them to heal each other even though that's impossible - for someone like LX, Xiamo with her problems with emotional openness and trust, is about the worst possible gf.