A Love to Kill: brought to you by the dead body of Dangermousie

[dangermousie]

So.

I finished A Love to Kill.

Yeah.

Yeah.

YEAH.



autumn_yaar, which Bolly movie did the ending remind you of (as you mentioned)? The only one I could think of was Fanaa because of the snow and because they really did destroy themselves for love.

Oddly, I didn't feel dreadful about the ending, even though it made me cry. That was the only way they could be together, and that shot of him cradling her body, all wrapped around her is...Oh. My. God.

I lied. I am crying again.

I did love that she opened her eyes at the very end, because it meant she knew he was there with her. And OMG, when he was trying to warm her up and yelling her name, and how the protection chain just dropped and OMG OMG OMG.

Seriously. It's hard to write coherently because I am having to pinch myself not to cry.

There is no way they could have lived together. It's clearly indicated by the fact that they are falling apart after Mingu's death despite (or because) Mingu's blessing. Because a part of them wanted him dead, and a part of them wants each other so badly and despite the whole 'she is your brother's love' etc etc, he wants her and he can't stop and vice versa. And the fact that Mingu knew about the love just makes it all the worse...

I think my very favorite scene in the whole thing is when they decide to never meet each other again, and then he runs after her and he tells her: 'If I am to be punished, I'll take it. If people will throw stones at us, I'll get hit. If there is a hell, I'll go there. Let's forget who you are and who I am. Let's be crazy. Let's run away together.'

And the do, and they agree to have one perfect day and never see each other after but have no regrets during that day and it's heartbreaking and adorable because they are so happy and they laugh so much and you can see what could have been if they met under other circumstances, because they are perfect together. And they ask each other every question they can think of, to know each other better, everything from least favorite food to shoesizes, as if they must (and they must) cram everything about each other, years of living together into one day. I nearly died when in response to her asking him when he first began to love her, he told her 'from the first moment I saw you.' Or when she asked him what he wanted to be when he grew up, he said 'good father' (considering Daddy Dearest he had).

But the thing is, it can never be. Mingu is always between them. They pretend they can have more than one day and they keep repeating 'I can do it' but they both know they are lying. Their guilt would eat them alive. And they say they can have normal lives when they part, but they are deluding themselves. He is hollow that year after that day, becoming an automaton, and she can't take it and basically disappears (as she said earlier she wanted to, go deep into mountains where no one would find her) and freezes to death because she has no strength to live. They can't be with each other, and they can't be without (I love the much earlier scene where Da Jeong tells Eun Seuk she should be with Bokgu and ES keeps saying 'no no no no no' and with every 'no' she proves her impossible desire to do so as stronger and stronger.)

I feel so bad for Jun Sung, the fiance. I ended up loving him and I hope he finds someone who will love him and take good care of him.

But in the final analysis, all I am really thinking of, is that last image of them. Curled around each other in the snow, at peace at last and yet...

Fuck. I am crying again.