Mars Thoughts: eps 9-11
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dangermousieYes, I am quite behind. I love hanging out with our houseguests but I so just want to ditch and watch more Mars. This is a write-up on eps 9, 10, and 11 which is as far as I'd gotten (I've done huge write ups on Mars eps before so I am trying not to replicate, but I largely don't remember what I'd covered or not so sorry for any repetition).
I absolutely adore the scene when QL comes to visit Ling in his apartment and finds Ling sick. She offers to get others to nurse him, but it's because she doesn't want to presume. And she ends up staying and taking care of him. And I've realized that no one has ever taken care of him before. He always had to take care of other people, whether his brother or his ex gf, but he's never had anyone to return the favor for him. In her quiet way, QL is very capable and a very good shoulder to lean on. That is why I love the ship so much. They help each other so much, they support each other. They just really work. And I love that she falls asleep holding his hand, staying overnight in his place: and that is a girl who is so scared of men. It really shows the levels to which she trusts him (and I think he needs her trust so badly. She never lets him say, even jokingly, that he is no good. She sees all the good in him and it allows him to believe into its existence in him for himself). And she wakes up in his bed and he's tucked her in fully clothed. Awwww. And of course I love that she cooks for him and she makes smiley face on the omelet and when he sits there watching her cook, not only is it just an amazingly domestic scene, you can tell how Ling is rather melting at this and how he is so not used to any of this and it's just adorable.
I love the earlier scene about him not being able to run upstairs when that stupid ex potentially went on the roof. The boy is a mess and I love that the show never really sies away from it. My favorite scene in all these eps is his falling apart in front of QL and admitting how scared he is (when she tells him she wants him to face what went on. It's a very good advice but it's easer for her because she is not in his place. When she has to face her own demons rather later, it's equally hard for her). He is just freaking out so much, and he is panicking and when he says he doesn't want to go 'back to those days' (aka the psych ward I presume), it really has the feeling of a panic attack and I feel horrible for him and heis so terrified and pleading (in general, not to QL of course) and emotionally naked and you realize yet again that underneath his tough, expansive shell he is just a very wounded young guy who's had to deal with way too much (of course, ex shows up later and makes it all about her argh). And I think it's because he feels he can show his feelings, even such feelings of weakness in front of QL (just as later she tells him about her rape and she's never told anyone before).
I do love their day together after she stays over at his place. That kiss at the metro station, with her asking him to kiss her as 'people do in greeting in foreign countries' (such a callback to their first kiss and his phrase) is beautiful. She loves him so much she almost glows in her quiet way, and I love the look on his face after that kiss as she walks off. It's so touched and moved, and his emotions are so out of the open and his shell is so shattered when he is with her.
I also loved when he tells her about Sheng. When he tells her how he hated him blah blah, this is obviously not true (and I love QL for pointing it out) but it's clearly something that he's been thinking to himself when the night is dark. It's something he keeps blaming himself for, probably. Ling feels as if he is horrible, irredeemable (Tong Dao really plays on that darkness later), but QL's steadfast belief in his goodness and his soul is what keeps him grounded. He needs her faith, in order to face himself. I do find it interesting that he says he couldn't be good when Sheng was arond, and he is the distorted one. It's so telling. And then he starts crying, after baring probably his deepest insecurities and torments, and he whispers her to look away, and she holds him and says 'it's OK' and he cries and she has her face on his hair and she is crying too, for him. I love that they really see each other at their lowest throughout this and yet love and support each other.
I've written a lot about Tong Dao and his effect on Ling before, in my previous Mars watch posts. But I do find it disturbing that TD is trying to recreate his prior relationship this time with Ling (I love the explicit parallels the cop makes between Ling/Sheng and TD/Quen Mu). Both TD and Sheng (at least it seems) were inciting violence and pushing the other person into violent activities, and then stand back and watch from the sidelines.
I love QL kissing Ling in the diner. First. EEEEE! And she cuts his slices for him and he says they are too big. One of the many reasons I think they are so good together is that you see them happy and compatible and just being good together during many happy, non-stress times. They are wonderful together. I think he loves having her do little things like that for her (as he mentions he's never had his Mom's cooking and even if she was alive, she'd never cook for him). I lovehow he keeps having issues and self doubt but she loves him and believes in him and she gives him security to open himself. Of course I love that it's not just her doing that for him. He does it for her, too, whenever she is n trouble (and I love that she now laughs and teases and she is alive and not a frozen little sad girl who mentioned she used to hate to go to school and pray that no one would speak to her).
I also love the scene where he is jealous (after she tells him about the older gent and the painting). I think he sometimes feels he is not good enough. And I love it when she calms him and tells him she loves the smell of gasoline (heeeee) and then they seriously neck and she freaks and breaks it off and it's going to be quite an issue later because he is being good about not pushing her about it, but he'll want it sooner or later and he is already wondering what's up with this.
I also love how on this show, it lets guys be guys. Ling might love QL a lot, but he s interested in sex, drinks beer as a fun activity with his buddies, and is not into flowery speeches.
I love Mars. Many doramas later, it's still my favorite.
I absolutely adore the scene when QL comes to visit Ling in his apartment and finds Ling sick. She offers to get others to nurse him, but it's because she doesn't want to presume. And she ends up staying and taking care of him. And I've realized that no one has ever taken care of him before. He always had to take care of other people, whether his brother or his ex gf, but he's never had anyone to return the favor for him. In her quiet way, QL is very capable and a very good shoulder to lean on. That is why I love the ship so much. They help each other so much, they support each other. They just really work. And I love that she falls asleep holding his hand, staying overnight in his place: and that is a girl who is so scared of men. It really shows the levels to which she trusts him (and I think he needs her trust so badly. She never lets him say, even jokingly, that he is no good. She sees all the good in him and it allows him to believe into its existence in him for himself). And she wakes up in his bed and he's tucked her in fully clothed. Awwww. And of course I love that she cooks for him and she makes smiley face on the omelet and when he sits there watching her cook, not only is it just an amazingly domestic scene, you can tell how Ling is rather melting at this and how he is so not used to any of this and it's just adorable.
I love the earlier scene about him not being able to run upstairs when that stupid ex potentially went on the roof. The boy is a mess and I love that the show never really sies away from it. My favorite scene in all these eps is his falling apart in front of QL and admitting how scared he is (when she tells him she wants him to face what went on. It's a very good advice but it's easer for her because she is not in his place. When she has to face her own demons rather later, it's equally hard for her). He is just freaking out so much, and he is panicking and when he says he doesn't want to go 'back to those days' (aka the psych ward I presume), it really has the feeling of a panic attack and I feel horrible for him and heis so terrified and pleading (in general, not to QL of course) and emotionally naked and you realize yet again that underneath his tough, expansive shell he is just a very wounded young guy who's had to deal with way too much (of course, ex shows up later and makes it all about her argh). And I think it's because he feels he can show his feelings, even such feelings of weakness in front of QL (just as later she tells him about her rape and she's never told anyone before).
I do love their day together after she stays over at his place. That kiss at the metro station, with her asking him to kiss her as 'people do in greeting in foreign countries' (such a callback to their first kiss and his phrase) is beautiful. She loves him so much she almost glows in her quiet way, and I love the look on his face after that kiss as she walks off. It's so touched and moved, and his emotions are so out of the open and his shell is so shattered when he is with her.
I also loved when he tells her about Sheng. When he tells her how he hated him blah blah, this is obviously not true (and I love QL for pointing it out) but it's clearly something that he's been thinking to himself when the night is dark. It's something he keeps blaming himself for, probably. Ling feels as if he is horrible, irredeemable (Tong Dao really plays on that darkness later), but QL's steadfast belief in his goodness and his soul is what keeps him grounded. He needs her faith, in order to face himself. I do find it interesting that he says he couldn't be good when Sheng was arond, and he is the distorted one. It's so telling. And then he starts crying, after baring probably his deepest insecurities and torments, and he whispers her to look away, and she holds him and says 'it's OK' and he cries and she has her face on his hair and she is crying too, for him. I love that they really see each other at their lowest throughout this and yet love and support each other.
I've written a lot about Tong Dao and his effect on Ling before, in my previous Mars watch posts. But I do find it disturbing that TD is trying to recreate his prior relationship this time with Ling (I love the explicit parallels the cop makes between Ling/Sheng and TD/Quen Mu). Both TD and Sheng (at least it seems) were inciting violence and pushing the other person into violent activities, and then stand back and watch from the sidelines.
I love QL kissing Ling in the diner. First. EEEEE! And she cuts his slices for him and he says they are too big. One of the many reasons I think they are so good together is that you see them happy and compatible and just being good together during many happy, non-stress times. They are wonderful together. I think he loves having her do little things like that for her (as he mentions he's never had his Mom's cooking and even if she was alive, she'd never cook for him). I lovehow he keeps having issues and self doubt but she loves him and believes in him and she gives him security to open himself. Of course I love that it's not just her doing that for him. He does it for her, too, whenever she is n trouble (and I love that she now laughs and teases and she is alive and not a frozen little sad girl who mentioned she used to hate to go to school and pray that no one would speak to her).
I also love the scene where he is jealous (after she tells him about the older gent and the painting). I think he sometimes feels he is not good enough. And I love it when she calms him and tells him she loves the smell of gasoline (heeeee) and then they seriously neck and she freaks and breaks it off and it's going to be quite an issue later because he is being good about not pushing her about it, but he'll want it sooner or later and he is already wondering what's up with this.
I also love how on this show, it lets guys be guys. Ling might love QL a lot, but he s interested in sex, drinks beer as a fun activity with his buddies, and is not into flowery speeches.
I love Mars. Many doramas later, it's still my favorite.
