Faith. I give up.
Jul. 6th, 2006 05:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dangermousieOMG FAITH. Keyboard mashing was invented for this ep. And Dean is going to die and he is afraid but he still covers everything with snarky joke and Sam freaking out and trying to keep from cryin in the hospital and making that shaking call to Dad (who continues to be a bastard) and doing everything to save his brother and I love Dean knowing how much he means to Sam. And Sam is uber stubborn and single minded and focused and it's cool to see it all brought to bear on saving Dean and OMG angst.
And Dean being all weak and trying to pick up girls even when dying and being so pragmatic about spiritual stuff and OMG.
And he gets healed and the angst just ratchets UP. And he doesn't want to go on that stage not just because he doesn't believe but because he doesn't feel worthy or special. And he tries to ask Reverend why the Rev. picked him and it's something that anyone would have hard time grasping, but especially Dean who thinks he is broken beyond repair. And he thinks that guy died 'in exchange' and it's one more thing to haunt him, as he is all about saving others. And then he sees that girl with the tumor and her mother asking why he deserves to live instead of her daughter and he has no answer (who would?) and it makes him feel guiltier and guiltier because a part of him wants to live but this is a devil's barain at the cost of others who could have been healed instead and just...how do you pay for it?
And OMG, he has to stop Leila and I can't watch this, it's too depressing. Seriously, this ep is too much for me. I think I am going to stop.
And Dean being all weak and trying to pick up girls even when dying and being so pragmatic about spiritual stuff and OMG.
And he gets healed and the angst just ratchets UP. And he doesn't want to go on that stage not just because he doesn't believe but because he doesn't feel worthy or special. And he tries to ask Reverend why the Rev. picked him and it's something that anyone would have hard time grasping, but especially Dean who thinks he is broken beyond repair. And he thinks that guy died 'in exchange' and it's one more thing to haunt him, as he is all about saving others. And then he sees that girl with the tumor and her mother asking why he deserves to live instead of her daughter and he has no answer (who would?) and it makes him feel guiltier and guiltier because a part of him wants to live but this is a devil's barain at the cost of others who could have been healed instead and just...how do you pay for it?
And OMG, he has to stop Leila and I can't watch this, it's too depressing. Seriously, this ep is too much for me. I think I am going to stop.
