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dangermousieHotohori!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck. I just feel destroyed.
I've been sobbing for the last half-an-hour, hard enough that I can't see anything, my face is all red bloated splotches and I feel physically sick. I don't remember the last time I'd cried so hard for any fiction. It's years at least. At the very least, not since Return of the King.
I hate this so FUCKING much. And he didn't even get to see his unborn child's face. And his new wife (who he seemed happy with) is left all alone. And he was so selfless and he really didn't demand much from life. And what did he get? I HATE Nakago. Can't wait until someone kills him (please!)
And I just. I know it's ridiculous, he is not only a fictional chracter, he is an animated fictional character, but I can't help it. I am crying as I type.
I had a nice long post written up earlier that but now, I just...Well, I wrote it so why not post it, but I just...
I stopped the DVD and I am just going to lie down.
Soi was a child whore? And Nakago rescued her? Whoa, he did one good thing. I guess it explains her love for him. And she died saving his life. And Nakago is...never seen him look like that before. And now he carts her dead body around?
Also, Hotohori got a wife! Who looks just like Nuriko! Eeeeeee! Am so happy for him because he appears happy with her. Yessss! Except I am deathly afraid that now he is a main character again, he is going to die in the wars against Kutou. No!
Miaka and Tamahome decided to make love because they can't summon Suzuku any more. Love the scene where she tells him they will all likely die in battle tomorrow so she wants him to stay with her tonight and make her his bride. But I love even more that it didn't really get anywhere much. Which was so cute, because neither of them have much (any?) experience and it's kinda awkward etc. Adorable.
Evil Yui, to wish herself and Miaka back into their world so she will have to leave Tamahome forever. I really have no patience with Yui who, I don't think ever loved Tamahome (she liked him, he was cute, but love? Naaaaah), and is generally behaving from the venerable principle of "If I can't be happy, no one should be." Ugh.
Tamahome breaching the barriers of the worlds and coming with Miaka? Uber-cool. So is his child-like reaction to Tokyo. And I love Miaka's slavering reaction to seeing Tamahome in new modern clothes. Heeeeeee. But then he finds out he has no shadow and no reflection. And finds out he is just a character in a book and loses it. Because that is one hell of an existential crisis: he is not human, he doesn't exist, does he? But he feels he does (he wonderingly whispers "no reflection. But I can feel the cold") and he just can't deal with the fact that he and his family and the Suzaku 7 are not real. This is a hell of a thing to deal with. When he wanders the streets and thinks "My world is just in a book, written on paper somewhere? The deaths of my family, and Nuriko and Chiriko. My memories from when I was a kid, it was all just made up?" My heart just breaks for him. Of course, the way he reconciles everything isn't the way I'd do it ("I exist because of the Priestess and so does my world, so I should hold on to my love even stronger because it's the one real thing") and what he concludes isn't necessarily true (the book, after all, is both leaking into the real world and continuing without either Yui or Miaka's involvement or anyone reading it) but fits the straightforward and not too introspective character he has. And gosh, he looks even hotter in modern clothes. Never thought it was possible but I have mad hots for an animated character.
Also, the interesting thing is that in the past, the Universe hasn't been so unbalanced by the priestesses because there seems to have been only one at a time (if Nakago didn't have Yui, after all, no matter what he did, he wouldn't be a threat) and we also have Nakago, who isn't just evil and clever, but someone with no ties to one of the four countries or even that Universe so his wishes (to be a 5th God) really screw up reality of the book as he tries to alter the system and everything begins to merge.
How appropriate that Suboshi died in his battle with Tamahome largely through intervention of the ghosts of the children, Tamahome's siblings, that he murdered.
Also, they really seemed to have set up the 'Miaka can't stay in that world and Tamahome can't exist in ours' thing. I am getting really anxious.
And now Mitsukake has died! Healing all those people! How symbolic he did it to help that little child named Shoka, the same name as his fiancee whom he couldn't save. Frell.
Favorite pervy moment, btw? Much earlier after the umpteenth time they escaped death, Tamahome hugs Miaka and goes "every time you do this, it takes years off my life." And then Miaka replies "whaaaat are you grabbing?" and the camera pans down and he is hugging her breasts. :P Yes, he is so 17.
Fuck. I just feel destroyed.
I've been sobbing for the last half-an-hour, hard enough that I can't see anything, my face is all red bloated splotches and I feel physically sick. I don't remember the last time I'd cried so hard for any fiction. It's years at least. At the very least, not since Return of the King.
I hate this so FUCKING much. And he didn't even get to see his unborn child's face. And his new wife (who he seemed happy with) is left all alone. And he was so selfless and he really didn't demand much from life. And what did he get? I HATE Nakago. Can't wait until someone kills him (please!)
And I just. I know it's ridiculous, he is not only a fictional chracter, he is an animated fictional character, but I can't help it. I am crying as I type.
I had a nice long post written up earlier that but now, I just...Well, I wrote it so why not post it, but I just...
I stopped the DVD and I am just going to lie down.
Soi was a child whore? And Nakago rescued her? Whoa, he did one good thing. I guess it explains her love for him. And she died saving his life. And Nakago is...never seen him look like that before. And now he carts her dead body around?
Also, Hotohori got a wife! Who looks just like Nuriko! Eeeeeee! Am so happy for him because he appears happy with her. Yessss! Except I am deathly afraid that now he is a main character again, he is going to die in the wars against Kutou. No!
Miaka and Tamahome decided to make love because they can't summon Suzuku any more. Love the scene where she tells him they will all likely die in battle tomorrow so she wants him to stay with her tonight and make her his bride. But I love even more that it didn't really get anywhere much. Which was so cute, because neither of them have much (any?) experience and it's kinda awkward etc. Adorable.
Evil Yui, to wish herself and Miaka back into their world so she will have to leave Tamahome forever. I really have no patience with Yui who, I don't think ever loved Tamahome (she liked him, he was cute, but love? Naaaaah), and is generally behaving from the venerable principle of "If I can't be happy, no one should be." Ugh.
Tamahome breaching the barriers of the worlds and coming with Miaka? Uber-cool. So is his child-like reaction to Tokyo. And I love Miaka's slavering reaction to seeing Tamahome in new modern clothes. Heeeeeee. But then he finds out he has no shadow and no reflection. And finds out he is just a character in a book and loses it. Because that is one hell of an existential crisis: he is not human, he doesn't exist, does he? But he feels he does (he wonderingly whispers "no reflection. But I can feel the cold") and he just can't deal with the fact that he and his family and the Suzaku 7 are not real. This is a hell of a thing to deal with. When he wanders the streets and thinks "My world is just in a book, written on paper somewhere? The deaths of my family, and Nuriko and Chiriko. My memories from when I was a kid, it was all just made up?" My heart just breaks for him. Of course, the way he reconciles everything isn't the way I'd do it ("I exist because of the Priestess and so does my world, so I should hold on to my love even stronger because it's the one real thing") and what he concludes isn't necessarily true (the book, after all, is both leaking into the real world and continuing without either Yui or Miaka's involvement or anyone reading it) but fits the straightforward and not too introspective character he has. And gosh, he looks even hotter in modern clothes. Never thought it was possible but I have mad hots for an animated character.
Also, the interesting thing is that in the past, the Universe hasn't been so unbalanced by the priestesses because there seems to have been only one at a time (if Nakago didn't have Yui, after all, no matter what he did, he wouldn't be a threat) and we also have Nakago, who isn't just evil and clever, but someone with no ties to one of the four countries or even that Universe so his wishes (to be a 5th God) really screw up reality of the book as he tries to alter the system and everything begins to merge.
How appropriate that Suboshi died in his battle with Tamahome largely through intervention of the ghosts of the children, Tamahome's siblings, that he murdered.
Also, they really seemed to have set up the 'Miaka can't stay in that world and Tamahome can't exist in ours' thing. I am getting really anxious.
And now Mitsukake has died! Healing all those people! How symbolic he did it to help that little child named Shoka, the same name as his fiancee whom he couldn't save. Frell.
Favorite pervy moment, btw? Much earlier after the umpteenth time they escaped death, Tamahome hugs Miaka and goes "every time you do this, it takes years off my life." And then Miaka replies "whaaaat are you grabbing?" and the camera pans down and he is hugging her breasts. :P Yes, he is so 17.
