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dangermousieNow have only one Firefly episode left, Objects in Space. It's pretty early and I could have finished it, I suppose, but I am so in love with Heart of Gold (and kinda in shock), that it's waiting till tomorrow. OMG, Mal and Inara=OTP! The angst and the emotional mess and the loveliness and guuuuuuhhhh... I haven't seen anything as angstily, perfectly OTP as Mal and Inara, except John and Aeryn. Ever.
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rawles doesn't care for this one this much, as Kaylee flirts with Annoying Guy. But I do think it was a reaction to her being peeved at Simon.
Bits I loved?
The opening Simon and Kaylee scene. Awww. Simon is so adorably socially awkward and earnest and beyond adorable. Mal and Inara might be a thing of sheer painful beauty, but it's fun to see the warmth between Simon and Kaylee. And of course, then his lack of skill with women leaves Kaylee in a miff. Awww. But never worry, at the end she takes his hand.
How much do I love Mal? Well, if it wasn't for Crichton, I'd say he was my favorite sf character ever. The bit at the end, where he says he will turn Tracy over to the Feds, because Tracy basically brought all this trouble on them, is amazing. He is both really and truly inflexibly stern and yet you can see how much this is hurting him. Tracy has him right: gun slinger reputation, but under it all, he is a "sap." I like the image of no one of them really fitting in after the war. Mal is walking wounded too.
And oooh, Mal and Inara goodness. I loved them walking together in the beginning, when he doesn't want her to be involved in selling the gun, because he doesn't want her to be a crook (awwwwwww). And his asking if she'd mind changing her plans because they have to bury Tracy, and her quiet "of course." And then he, Zoe and Inara are drinking and Mal is telling a war story and they all laugh and this is their way of grieving and there is this comfort between Mal and Inara and she keeps looking at him. And this brings me to:
Heart of Gold
Yeah, tear my heart out, Joss Whedon, and stomp on it with nail-studded boots. And make me beg for more.
Hands down, my favorite episode so far.
There are some nice funny bits (like Jayne who is in pig heaven), but the rest of this is going to be about Mal and Inara. Who are so impossibly, brilliantly, painfully fucked-up. There all these things that are unsaid between them even in the beginning of the episode: the way she teases him about his guns, the way she tells him about Nandi's request. And then they enter the dangerous currents of all that they will not allow themselves to speak of, when he takes on the job of protecting Nandi and the "girls" because Inara asked and says he won't take payment. And she says that she will pay because she wants their relationship "professional" and you can tell he is hurt at her words, though he will never say.
And of course, it's very obvious to an outsider the way they feel about each other. Nandi zeroes in right away on how Mal feels about Inara (it takes her a bit longer with Inara because of the latter's mask). And she does warn him about Inara, that she hates "complications." And then of course Nandi and Mal drink together and end up deciding to go to bed together and I love it when Nandi looks him straight in the face and says: "I am not her" and the look on his face. Guuuuuh. Mal and Inara are fucked-up heaven. I think Mal is desperately lonely (and all too human) and nothing will ever happen with Inara who sleeps with a "client" on a regular basis, and he might die tomorrow, so he figures "why not?" (And I love how he tells Nandi he wants to be sure he is not overstepping his bounds).
Of course, he walks out in the morning, half-dressed, and by Whedon-law bumps straight into Inara. And I love that he stammers and tries to explain, because it's the same thing as when Kara slept with Baltar and was quiet around Apollo. The other person has no claim on you, but in your heart they do. And of course Inara saying she is actually glad Nandi and Mal slept together and you just see the moment his eyes die. And then of course the next shot of her is huddled in a corner somewhere, weeping as if her heart is breaking. (I don't feel super-sorry for her, I confess, because how does she think Mal feels when she goes off on business?)
And yeah, Mal doesn't know how she feels, as his later aborted attempt to talk to Nandi shows. Guuuuh. He has no idea she likes him back.
And then of course Nandi gets shot and Mal thinks it's his fault and you get that tag that just tore my heart out of my chest. Where Mal is brought really low, because he feels so guilty for Nandi's death and Inara says that now that Nandi died, she is glas N. had Mal with her, her last night on earth, and Mal catches really quickly and asks "does it mean you weren't glad before" and there is all that hope and I can't bear it...
Because then he says that he is "feeling truthful" because he is so tired of all the games and you just know he wants to pour his heart out to her and she starts speaking, saying that Nandi taught her things about love and how it ties you down and you never even want to break away and she is going to do something she should have done a long time ago for both their sakes and you know he is thinking that she will tell him she loves him and instead she says she is leaving. Oh. My. God. Ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod.
Oh Inara, you silly silly stupid fool! Throwing away something and someone like that is criminal. He is brave and strong and honorable and he loves you and you just broke his heart.
I need some Mal/Inara in "Serenity." Please. I'd offer my firstborn, but my husband will object.
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I think I know why
rawles doesn't care for this one this much, as Kaylee flirts with Annoying Guy. But I do think it was a reaction to her being peeved at Simon. Bits I loved?
The opening Simon and Kaylee scene. Awww. Simon is so adorably socially awkward and earnest and beyond adorable. Mal and Inara might be a thing of sheer painful beauty, but it's fun to see the warmth between Simon and Kaylee. And of course, then his lack of skill with women leaves Kaylee in a miff. Awww. But never worry, at the end she takes his hand.
How much do I love Mal? Well, if it wasn't for Crichton, I'd say he was my favorite sf character ever. The bit at the end, where he says he will turn Tracy over to the Feds, because Tracy basically brought all this trouble on them, is amazing. He is both really and truly inflexibly stern and yet you can see how much this is hurting him. Tracy has him right: gun slinger reputation, but under it all, he is a "sap." I like the image of no one of them really fitting in after the war. Mal is walking wounded too.
And oooh, Mal and Inara goodness. I loved them walking together in the beginning, when he doesn't want her to be involved in selling the gun, because he doesn't want her to be a crook (awwwwwww). And his asking if she'd mind changing her plans because they have to bury Tracy, and her quiet "of course." And then he, Zoe and Inara are drinking and Mal is telling a war story and they all laugh and this is their way of grieving and there is this comfort between Mal and Inara and she keeps looking at him. And this brings me to:
Heart of Gold
Yeah, tear my heart out, Joss Whedon, and stomp on it with nail-studded boots. And make me beg for more.
Hands down, my favorite episode so far.
There are some nice funny bits (like Jayne who is in pig heaven), but the rest of this is going to be about Mal and Inara. Who are so impossibly, brilliantly, painfully fucked-up. There all these things that are unsaid between them even in the beginning of the episode: the way she teases him about his guns, the way she tells him about Nandi's request. And then they enter the dangerous currents of all that they will not allow themselves to speak of, when he takes on the job of protecting Nandi and the "girls" because Inara asked and says he won't take payment. And she says that she will pay because she wants their relationship "professional" and you can tell he is hurt at her words, though he will never say.
And of course, it's very obvious to an outsider the way they feel about each other. Nandi zeroes in right away on how Mal feels about Inara (it takes her a bit longer with Inara because of the latter's mask). And she does warn him about Inara, that she hates "complications." And then of course Nandi and Mal drink together and end up deciding to go to bed together and I love it when Nandi looks him straight in the face and says: "I am not her" and the look on his face. Guuuuuh. Mal and Inara are fucked-up heaven. I think Mal is desperately lonely (and all too human) and nothing will ever happen with Inara who sleeps with a "client" on a regular basis, and he might die tomorrow, so he figures "why not?" (And I love how he tells Nandi he wants to be sure he is not overstepping his bounds).
Of course, he walks out in the morning, half-dressed, and by Whedon-law bumps straight into Inara. And I love that he stammers and tries to explain, because it's the same thing as when Kara slept with Baltar and was quiet around Apollo. The other person has no claim on you, but in your heart they do. And of course Inara saying she is actually glad Nandi and Mal slept together and you just see the moment his eyes die. And then of course the next shot of her is huddled in a corner somewhere, weeping as if her heart is breaking. (I don't feel super-sorry for her, I confess, because how does she think Mal feels when she goes off on business?)
And yeah, Mal doesn't know how she feels, as his later aborted attempt to talk to Nandi shows. Guuuuh. He has no idea she likes him back.
And then of course Nandi gets shot and Mal thinks it's his fault and you get that tag that just tore my heart out of my chest. Where Mal is brought really low, because he feels so guilty for Nandi's death and Inara says that now that Nandi died, she is glas N. had Mal with her, her last night on earth, and Mal catches really quickly and asks "does it mean you weren't glad before" and there is all that hope and I can't bear it...
Because then he says that he is "feeling truthful" because he is so tired of all the games and you just know he wants to pour his heart out to her and she starts speaking, saying that Nandi taught her things about love and how it ties you down and you never even want to break away and she is going to do something she should have done a long time ago for both their sakes and you know he is thinking that she will tell him she loves him and instead she says she is leaving. Oh. My. God. Ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod.
Oh Inara, you silly silly stupid fool! Throwing away something and someone like that is criminal. He is brave and strong and honorable and he loves you and you just broke his heart.
I need some Mal/Inara in "Serenity." Please. I'd offer my firstborn, but my husband will object.
