I have been flipping through LC in preparation for a reread...

[dangermousie]

...and Lymond begging Philippa for the right to kill himself is still one of the most unbearable things ever.

Also this time, I don't think I could even bear to reread Pawn. The chess game kills me so badly I can't breathe.

Also, Philippa? Most awesome fictional heroine ever. EVER. But I am not sure whether it's because I adore her intrinsic awesomeness or because she is Lymond's salvation.