Supernatural

Happy Fourth of July to everyone on my flist who is American!

In other news, I watched Supernatural's "Bloody Mary" and OMG. Now I am in love with Sam. He feels all that guilt for Jess dying (and I think for him saving that girl is sort of a bit of a second chance) and he has nightmares and he screams her name and he is so quiet and fucked up and OMG. *fangirl fangirl fangirl* And he is nervous and afraid and still does it and I don't think he cares too much about life and it's all OMG. I never noticed the hotness before, either but ewhen he is all angry and determined and jaw-clenching? Yum. Unlike Dean, for whom I've fallen instantly, Sam's sort of grown on me gradually, but grown he has...

And then Dean finally has enough and wants to talk to him about it and convince Sam it's not his fault even if Sam will blame him instead and he is a pretty good older brother, in a very guy way. And then he goes off to Sam's rescue. And he smashes the mirror as Sam cannot look away because the phantom is saying everything Sam's ever thought about his own guilt, all the things Sam must repeat to himself night after night. And after smashing the mirror, Dean just grabs his face all uber-anxious and freaking out Sam is not OK and it's all so lovely. And I love Sam saying later, amtter of factly, that he'd die for Dean and the brief look on Dean's face. Awwww. I am all about the brotherly love in this show (platonic).

This really is anime-ish. Makes me think of Saiyuki with Dean=Sanzo and Sam=Hakkai.

Supernatural

Happy Fourth of July to everyone on my flist who is American!

In other news, I watched Supernatural's "Bloody Mary" and OMG. Now I am in love with Sam. He feels all that guilt for Jess dying (and I think for him saving that girl is sort of a bit of a second chance) and he has nightmares and he screams her name and he is so quiet and fucked up and OMG. *fangirl fangirl fangirl* And he is nervous and afraid and still does it and I don't think he cares too much about life and it's all OMG. I never noticed the hotness before, either but ewhen he is all angry and determined and jaw-clenching? Yum. Unlike Dean, for whom I've fallen instantly, Sam's sort of grown on me gradually, but grown he has...

And then Dean finally has enough and wants to talk to him about it and convince Sam it's not his fault even if Sam will blame him instead and he is a pretty good older brother, in a very guy way. And then he goes off to Sam's rescue. And he smashes the mirror as Sam cannot look away because the phantom is saying everything Sam's ever thought about his own guilt, all the things Sam must repeat to himself night after night. And after smashing the mirror, Dean just grabs his face all uber-anxious and freaking out Sam is not OK and it's all so lovely. And I love Sam saying later, amtter of factly, that he'd die for Dean and the brief look on Dean's face. Awwww. I am all about the brotherly love in this show (platonic).

This really is anime-ish. Makes me think of Saiyuki with Dean=Sanzo and Sam=Hakkai.

Supernatural

Happy Fourth of July to everyone on my flist who is American!

In other news, I watched Supernatural's "Bloody Mary" and OMG. Now I am in love with Sam. He feels all that guilt for Jess dying (and I think for him saving that girl is sort of a bit of a second chance) and he has nightmares and he screams her name and he is so quiet and fucked up and OMG. *fangirl fangirl fangirl* And he is nervous and afraid and still does it and I don't think he cares too much about life and it's all OMG. I never noticed the hotness before, either but ewhen he is all angry and determined and jaw-clenching? Yum. Unlike Dean, for whom I've fallen instantly, Sam's sort of grown on me gradually, but grown he has...

And then Dean finally has enough and wants to talk to him about it and convince Sam it's not his fault even if Sam will blame him instead and he is a pretty good older brother, in a very guy way. And then he goes off to Sam's rescue. And he smashes the mirror as Sam cannot look away because the phantom is saying everything Sam's ever thought about his own guilt, all the things Sam must repeat to himself night after night. And after smashing the mirror, Dean just grabs his face all uber-anxious and freaking out Sam is not OK and it's all so lovely. And I love Sam saying later, amtter of factly, that he'd die for Dean and the brief look on Dean's face. Awwww. I am all about the brotherly love in this show (platonic).

This really is anime-ish. Makes me think of Saiyuki with Dean=Sanzo and Sam=Hakkai.

Because it is a holiday

Some eye candy presents that should cover most of my fandoms. Probably not work-safe.

( Jason Dohring as Logan )

( Hrithik Roshan )

( Jason Behr )

( Nathan Fillion as Mal Reynolds )

( Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki )

( Abhishek Bachchan )

( Ben Browder as John Crichton )

( Jamie Bamber as Lee Adama )

( Katee Sakhoff as Kara Thrace )

( Grace Park as Boomer )

( Boys from MeruPuri )

( Boys from Fushigi Yuugi )

( Vash from Trigun )

( Himura Kenshin from Rurouni Kenshin )

Because it is a holiday

Some eye candy presents that should cover most of my fandoms. Probably not work-safe.

( Jason Dohring as Logan )

( Hrithik Roshan )

( Jason Behr )

( Nathan Fillion as Mal Reynolds )

( Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki )

( Abhishek Bachchan )

( Ben Browder as John Crichton )

( Jamie Bamber as Lee Adama )

( Katee Sakhoff as Kara Thrace )

( Grace Park as Boomer )

( Boys from MeruPuri )

( Boys from Fushigi Yuugi )

( Vash from Trigun )

( Himura Kenshin from Rurouni Kenshin )

Because it is a holiday

Some eye candy presents that should cover most of my fandoms. Probably not work-safe.

( Jason Dohring as Logan )

( Hrithik Roshan )

( Jason Behr )

( Nathan Fillion as Mal Reynolds )

( Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki )

( Abhishek Bachchan )

( Ben Browder as John Crichton )

( Jamie Bamber as Lee Adama )

( Katee Sakhoff as Kara Thrace )

( Grace Park as Boomer )

( Boys from MeruPuri )

( Boys from Fushigi Yuugi )

( Vash from Trigun )

( Himura Kenshin from Rurouni Kenshin )

Supernatural: Our Family puts the 'fun' back in dysfunctional

Saw the Supernatural ep "Skin." crumpeteer is right, a very good ep. Though I am a bit dense about the sequence of events. The shapeshifter (SS) turned into Dean, tied up Dean and Sam, went and tied up and tortured Rebecca and ran off. Then he attacked her again (????) and pretended to be her and tried to take Sam out. Did I get this right? But who cares because there is all this juicy character stuff.

You know, I continue to be amazed that the brothers haven't been arrested yet. People keep exploding their false identities and bluff. And at the end, 'Dean Winchester' is a dead murderer, so wouldn't it be problematic for the real Dean to get anywhere. Plus, I feel very sorry for that husband who got accused of beating up his wife.

You know, in my last post, I compared SPN to Saiyuki. But in this ep, the comparison that came to mind was actually Buffy, in that it's people with special skills that isolate them and keep them from normal life, the tug of which they feel anyway. Of course, Sam is a heck of a lot better integrated. Even on the road he keeps in touch with his college friends, and he manages to stay friends with Rebecca even after she knows the truth about him. I wonder why he was able to shake off his bizarro world upbringing better than Dean? Maybe it's because despite first impressions, he actually is the tough son, and not Dean. Dean never left their father, but I think he didn't try normal life at all, even within confines of that life. I think it's probably because, unlike Sam, he remembers the death of their mother, and that memory of loss and of danger to people involved in their lives, makes him keep a distance. Also, maybe he bought into his father's notions more, being more impressionable, or more emotionally dependent on his family, or whatever. If Sam is Buffy, bending the rules because he thinks they are flexible, and getting away with it, Dean is the much much snarkier version of Kendra. Someone who buys into the rules, however strict they are. Of course, Sam had more room to be free-spirited, because I'd imagine Dean had to take care of Sam when they were younger and not vice-versa. And I think Sam's great brush with normalcy and being able to have normal bonds came after he left. Since Dean never left, he had no chance to form these bonds and so want to keep them. It's more of a pressing his nose against the glass situation. He tells Sam that Sam should just cut all those people out of his life, but I wonder if it's not envy of some sort: kind of like the fox and the grape: I can't have it so it's not worthwhile, and trying really really hard to convince himself of the fact.

After all, SS totally gloms onto Dean's deeply buried issues: his jealousy that Sam actually broke away, his fears of being left behind by everyone (and his resentment that his little brother left him, his father left him despite him being the obedient son), and his belief in the fact that he is a freak. If it is a long held belief, it might explain in part why he never tried to break away or make contacts. What's the point if he can never be normal and will aways be rejected. What's the pont of trying if it will be futile and bring on further pain? But I do think if he did somehow get away and discover that he could blend in, some of those issues would go away, so it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy. He pushes people away because he thinks he is a freak who will be left, so he ends up being alone so it makes him think he is a freak who was left which makes him push people away and so on and so forth.

I also love love love the fact that even tied up by SS and with eminent danger of being cut up into bits, all Sam wants to know is where and how Dean is and whether his brother is all right. They both are very close in so many ways, aren't they? And I love that Sam couldn't shoot SS even though he was almost sure it wasn't Dean, because you know, it could be...Though why not shoot it in the legs?

Supernatural: Our Family puts the 'fun' back in dysfunctional

Saw the Supernatural ep "Skin." crumpeteer is right, a very good ep. Though I am a bit dense about the sequence of events. The shapeshifter (SS) turned into Dean, tied up Dean and Sam, went and tied up and tortured Rebecca and ran off. Then he attacked her again (????) and pretended to be her and tried to take Sam out. Did I get this right? But who cares because there is all this juicy character stuff.

You know, I continue to be amazed that the brothers haven't been arrested yet. People keep exploding their false identities and bluff. And at the end, 'Dean Winchester' is a dead murderer, so wouldn't it be problematic for the real Dean to get anywhere. Plus, I feel very sorry for that husband who got accused of beating up his wife.

You know, in my last post, I compared SPN to Saiyuki. But in this ep, the comparison that came to mind was actually Buffy, in that it's people with special skills that isolate them and keep them from normal life, the tug of which they feel anyway. Of course, Sam is a heck of a lot better integrated. Even on the road he keeps in touch with his college friends, and he manages to stay friends with Rebecca even after she knows the truth about him. I wonder why he was able to shake off his bizarro world upbringing better than Dean? Maybe it's because despite first impressions, he actually is the tough son, and not Dean. Dean never left their father, but I think he didn't try normal life at all, even within confines of that life. I think it's probably because, unlike Sam, he remembers the death of their mother, and that memory of loss and of danger to people involved in their lives, makes him keep a distance. Also, maybe he bought into his father's notions more, being more impressionable, or more emotionally dependent on his family, or whatever. If Sam is Buffy, bending the rules because he thinks they are flexible, and getting away with it, Dean is the much much snarkier version of Kendra. Someone who buys into the rules, however strict they are. Of course, Sam had more room to be free-spirited, because I'd imagine Dean had to take care of Sam when they were younger and not vice-versa. And I think Sam's great brush with normalcy and being able to have normal bonds came after he left. Since Dean never left, he had no chance to form these bonds and so want to keep them. It's more of a pressing his nose against the glass situation. He tells Sam that Sam should just cut all those people out of his life, but I wonder if it's not envy of some sort: kind of like the fox and the grape: I can't have it so it's not worthwhile, and trying really really hard to convince himself of the fact.

After all, SS totally gloms onto Dean's deeply buried issues: his jealousy that Sam actually broke away, his fears of being left behind by everyone (and his resentment that his little brother left him, his father left him despite him being the obedient son), and his belief in the fact that he is a freak. If it is a long held belief, it might explain in part why he never tried to break away or make contacts. What's the point if he can never be normal and will aways be rejected. What's the pont of trying if it will be futile and bring on further pain? But I do think if he did somehow get away and discover that he could blend in, some of those issues would go away, so it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy. He pushes people away because he thinks he is a freak who will be left, so he ends up being alone so it makes him think he is a freak who was left which makes him push people away and so on and so forth.

I also love love love the fact that even tied up by SS and with eminent danger of being cut up into bits, all Sam wants to know is where and how Dean is and whether his brother is all right. They both are very close in so many ways, aren't they? And I love that Sam couldn't shoot SS even though he was almost sure it wasn't Dean, because you know, it could be...Though why not shoot it in the legs?

Supernatural: Our Family puts the 'fun' back in dysfunctional

Saw the Supernatural ep "Skin." crumpeteer is right, a very good ep. Though I am a bit dense about the sequence of events. The shapeshifter (SS) turned into Dean, tied up Dean and Sam, went and tied up and tortured Rebecca and ran off. Then he attacked her again (????) and pretended to be her and tried to take Sam out. Did I get this right? But who cares because there is all this juicy character stuff.

You know, I continue to be amazed that the brothers haven't been arrested yet. People keep exploding their false identities and bluff. And at the end, 'Dean Winchester' is a dead murderer, so wouldn't it be problematic for the real Dean to get anywhere. Plus, I feel very sorry for that husband who got accused of beating up his wife.

You know, in my last post, I compared SPN to Saiyuki. But in this ep, the comparison that came to mind was actually Buffy, in that it's people with special skills that isolate them and keep them from normal life, the tug of which they feel anyway. Of course, Sam is a heck of a lot better integrated. Even on the road he keeps in touch with his college friends, and he manages to stay friends with Rebecca even after she knows the truth about him. I wonder why he was able to shake off his bizarro world upbringing better than Dean? Maybe it's because despite first impressions, he actually is the tough son, and not Dean. Dean never left their father, but I think he didn't try normal life at all, even within confines of that life. I think it's probably because, unlike Sam, he remembers the death of their mother, and that memory of loss and of danger to people involved in their lives, makes him keep a distance. Also, maybe he bought into his father's notions more, being more impressionable, or more emotionally dependent on his family, or whatever. If Sam is Buffy, bending the rules because he thinks they are flexible, and getting away with it, Dean is the much much snarkier version of Kendra. Someone who buys into the rules, however strict they are. Of course, Sam had more room to be free-spirited, because I'd imagine Dean had to take care of Sam when they were younger and not vice-versa. And I think Sam's great brush with normalcy and being able to have normal bonds came after he left. Since Dean never left, he had no chance to form these bonds and so want to keep them. It's more of a pressing his nose against the glass situation. He tells Sam that Sam should just cut all those people out of his life, but I wonder if it's not envy of some sort: kind of like the fox and the grape: I can't have it so it's not worthwhile, and trying really really hard to convince himself of the fact.

After all, SS totally gloms onto Dean's deeply buried issues: his jealousy that Sam actually broke away, his fears of being left behind by everyone (and his resentment that his little brother left him, his father left him despite him being the obedient son), and his belief in the fact that he is a freak. If it is a long held belief, it might explain in part why he never tried to break away or make contacts. What's the point if he can never be normal and will aways be rejected. What's the pont of trying if it will be futile and bring on further pain? But I do think if he did somehow get away and discover that he could blend in, some of those issues would go away, so it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy. He pushes people away because he thinks he is a freak who will be left, so he ends up being alone so it makes him think he is a freak who was left which makes him push people away and so on and so forth.

I also love love love the fact that even tied up by SS and with eminent danger of being cut up into bits, all Sam wants to know is where and how Dean is and whether his brother is all right. They both are very close in so many ways, aren't they? And I love that Sam couldn't shoot SS even though he was almost sure it wasn't Dean, because you know, it could be...Though why not shoot it in the legs?