dangermousie | Because You Saved Me Twice - City Hunter ep 11 liveblogging

OK, now I calmed down enough to turn my liveblogging into something more coherent and cleaned up,

"We are here for vengeance, put away all personal feelings." Bwahahahaha, Undaddy, do you not hear the irony? revenge = most personal and irrational of feelings. Oh, and of course you are predictable with your 'if Nana finds out your identity she dies.' No wonder YS flipped so much when he realized she knew and did his best to shove her away, even trying to convince her he'd kill her. He knew that is how Undaddy would react.

Nana thinking about him being shot and putting a bullet from the necklace to that shoulder going 'i wonder how much that hurt' She is not going to give up on you, idiot, not when you saved her life twice, once after she shot you. But YS has such excellent reason to push her away. My heart breaks for both of them.

He's telling himself he must forget her, for her sake, but let's face it, how can he, not when he's loved her since he was 17, years before they met, as the one embodiment of hope in his life?

You know, even if this drama somehow turns insane with next ep, I don't care, it is still going on my favorite 2011 list and YS and Nana on my fave all time otps.

I love how he tries to discourage her by telling her he'd have saved Eun Ha too, not just her, and he tries to make it seem as if she is not special to him, but what she gets out of it is that this means he is a good person. Oh, she's amazing.

He's quitting his job???? This drama sure likes to shake things up.

Undaddy may you burn in hell for telling YS' Mom he is dead just so you won't interfere with revenge. You are more of a monster than all the men you hunt put together. Go back to your undead grave.

"I want you to live well, Kyung Hee" Why are you not stricken dead on the spot by God, Undaddy? I literally have tears of rage in my eyes.

You know, people use the whole 'he saved YS from a landmine' as evidence Undaddy loves him somehow but nope, nope, nope. It's his not wanting to give up his conduit for revenge, nothing else - all his other behavior demonstrates that.

Great, now Kyung Hee left the hospital entirely and disappeared because she has nothing to live for so what's the point of treatment? I am sure the best friend who died to save you just loves that you just caused his loved wife's death, Undaddy!

God, I am spending the entirety of this ep either crying or enraged.

Nooo! YS just missed seeing her by minutes.

Great, now Undaddy (who is lying he has KH) has progressed to threatening the lives of both Nana AND Kyung Hee, to keep YS in line. His terms? Yoon Sung has to kill Target n3 or YS' Mom and OTP die. Oh my God. It's Yoon Sung, who's never cold-bloodedly killed anyone, who so desperately wants to escape the cycle of violence so as to have a hope for a normal life afterwards and prevent others from becoming like him as a result of turning into orphans. How can he? But how can he not? It's a choice that demands he damn himself, give up hope and become a murderer, or let his loved ones die. Why are you not dead yet, bastard Undaddy?

Oh, really, if you didn't get a limp, you'd carry revenge out by yourself? So why did you kidnap YS as a baby, freakshow???? I am getting tired of typing 'die scum' after each sentence concerning Undaddy so consider it automatically added from now on.

You do, realize, Scumbag, that you better find Kyung Hee and fast and get her treated because if YS dooms his immortal soul ecetc and finds out it was for nothing, what's to prevent him from going after you - after all, he'd be a murderer by then anyway.

Prosecutor's Daddy is no gift but he does genuinely love his son. Well, look on the bright side, Prosecutor. You could have Undaddy for a parent.

oooh, what's Pres' dirty secret that Target n4 knows? Hmmm.

Nana tells YS she will forget him and disappear from his life. Oh, it hurts so - because it must kill him to hear that, even though that is what he knows he should want.

Nana figured out Prosecutor is her Daddy Long Legs. Man, this drama doesn't drag anything.

Great, is Undaddy aiming for YS to be caught by the Prosecutor now? Ugh.

Prosecutor won't spare his own father from the law which is kinda awesome (that whole confrontation was amazing).

Ah, the irony. After all YS did to protect Nana, basically tearing out his heart, she gets kidnapped and is in mortal peril for something that has nothing to do with him. Nothing is certain in this world, YS, you might as well enjoy what happiness you can get.

I love it that I thought it will be a case of YS saving her once again but she rescued herself! And not only that, but she rescued him!!!

Oh, and horrible flunkies, how dare you torment YS? Arggggghghghghghghghghhgh

Those last few minutes, of Nana showing up like an avenging angel, busting down the door and taking on all those goons and decimating them, to save Yoon Sung - whoa. And then taking a bullet for him (in the same place she shot him. Please let it be the same place and thus survivable, please!) and falling into his arms, her blood spraying his face, like all his nightmares made flesh at once, and his going completely feral on the man who shot her (but somehow able to put her aside so very gently, still) and the way he stumbles to her, slowly, and with his eyes looking as if he was dying and there are tears in his voice and he can barely cry-whisper "why?" and she responds "because you saved me twice." My heart. I am crying like a total idiot and can barely see and have been crying for the last I don't know how long. And then she asks him 'did you also hurt like this?' because even with all of this, she still feels guilty and concern for the wound she caused and she is still concerned for him above all. Oh my God. They are my OTP of the year and no other drama this year can take that spot, I don't care what happens. And she tells him "did you really hate me? I would like to hear you didn't." Because despite her belief and strength she was unsure - after his words. Ohhhhh. He is going to self-destruct if she dies like this and believing this. Because she goes limp and he's left sobbing and screaming her name and clutching her dead (please don't be dead) or unconscious body.

For the record, drama, we are breaking up if she dies. It will be cool and gutsy but my heart can't stand it. Not only will YS likely shoot himself in the head, I can't deal without Nana - I love her. But I love you for making me believe you can do anything, even kill off the heroine halfway through the run.

All I can say is - oh my God. I had to cap this which meant rewatching which meant turning into a wreck.

This is the best drama of 2011. The end. Even if it is turning angsty enough to make me eat my own head.

Oh, and if you expect me to watch anything else before getting my hands on ep 12, you are insane. How could I even concentrate? How can anything compare?