IRIS ep 20

[dangermousie]

I am such an idiot. I've been spoiled for this for days, I've watched bits and pieces already to prepare myself etc etc etc but here I am, finally making myself finish it properly and I am crying. I am bawling so hard - harder than I have ever cried for a fiction since I was 12 and La Mole went to the executioner's block in Dumas' Queen Margot. I can't take it. I can't. Also, whoever came up with the close-up of the ring? And Hyun Joon weeping? That is not even playing fair.

Fuck it.

I can't.

I can't ever rewatch this drama.

My favorite drama this year or any year just broke my heart.

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[darkeyedwolf.livejournal.com]

WHERE ARE YOU I'VE BEEN CRYING BY MYSELF FOR TWO HOURS

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

Sorry - I have been torturing myself by rewatching bits.

This is just - the worst part is they were so happy and functional and healed and he was almost there and she was the last thing he ever saw and he could never reach her and he was crying and

ok, I am seriously sobbing now. hell.

[darkeyedwolf.livejournal.com]

Just the thought of going back to cap makes me want to cry. I don't know if I can stand to see it again.

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

I know. I capped most eps but 20 will be uncapped and I can't bear to rewatch other eps either.

I am sort of trying to dwell on the 'at least they had a stretch to be happy in' thing but it's not helping too much.

[clairiere.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{{Mousie}}}}}}}

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

I was dreaming about it :(

[timescout.livejournal.com]

((((Hugs))))

That was the most heartbreaking thing in the whole drama, the look on his face and the tears... oh, the tears. I have to say I'm glad I was not as invested in Hyun Joon as you were so I was spared of the worst agony. Once was enough....

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

It's just he could see her but never reach her - that was almost the worst part of it - punishment indeed.

I got so ridiculously invested in him and so this ending - his crying but not able to even call out, just looking...

OK, this is ridiculous but I am crying again. I never had a drama affect me this way, ever.

[timescout.livejournal.com]

Guess we all have at least one that breaks us. In my case I was not expecting it so I was totally unprepared. I remember sitting in a train on my way to work, weeks afterwards listening to my mp3 when the main theme from KnI started and I was in tears. Talk about embarrasing.

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

Awww - I am sorry.

I was not only spoiled for KnI, I watched it over 6 months or so, and even then I found the end horrible. I can't imagine dealing with it while attached to those characters (and the father never got his comeuppance and it was all ultimately for nothing as their bank was going to get swallowed up argh).

[timescout.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was all so pointless. I could not accept Teppei's decision at all, even if I could understand why he did it. I mean all he ever wanted was a little love or even acceptance from his father and got told 'You are the root of all evil and I wish you had not been born' or words to that effect. Talk about excessive daddy issues. No wonder the poor boy was messed up.

Enough time has passed so I don't get overly emotional any more. I don't usually get that shattered about shows or movies (Mawang came pretty damned close only there I was fully expecting the 'rocks fall, everyone dies' type of ending). I do often tear up at sad parts but it's more like 'here today, gone tomorrow'. Funny thing, it's mostly Asian dramas/movies that have the ability to do a more lasting 'damage'. :)

[linfer.livejournal.com]

So with you. I'm still speechless...and angry...besides being speechless.
Omg, I knew he'd die, although it's nothing I wanted to know beforehand, but even with knowing....damnit.
What killed me was how beautiful this scene was, while being horrible in every kind of way.
But I'm still so glad I gave this drama a second try.

[dangermousie.livejournal.com]

I was incredibly emotionally invested in this drama (I have no idea why but I went completely irrational) so the ending killed me. It made total sense but I went ranting and raving for hours.