Fanfic: Asleep (Majo No Jouken, Hikaru/Michi), 1/1

[dangermousie]

vierran45 started watching Majo No Jouken (Forbidden Love) and it made me think about Hikaru and Michi, so here this is.



I.

He doesn’t want to sleep because whether what he sees will be a dream or a nightmare, it will be more vivid than anything when he wakes up. He is caught in looking and not looking, in wanting to and not daring. Waking world is a confused jumble of ‘ifs.’ Sleeping world is not any better. You cannot run away, a prisoner in your own head.

II.

The line of the collarbone.

The smooth covering of skin. Hikaru thinks of it as he lies in his bed, lights darkened. He thinks of the hollow of her throat and how he doesn’t think of his Mother when he sees it, not any more. He can almost touch her, he feels, with his eyelids closed. His breathing evens out and before he knows it, it’s morning again.

He catches himself whistling as he prepares for school.

III.

Before his thoughts blur into a dozing kaleidoscope, he reaches out and as always, amazed to discover she is real.

IV.

He goes out in the morning and the days are simple and untrammeled and Michi comes home and everything is alright. He can reach out and touch her hair, still warm from the sun.

He wakes up from the dreams of peace and whispering and a tiny room. His neighbor is quiet and New York outside his windows is quiet and he turns over on his stomach and sticks his face into the pillow so no one can hear him shout.

V.

He falls asleep by her bedside and the beeping of the monitors is steady and soothing. He is holding her hand and he is still holding it when he wakes up. Nothing has changed and she hasn’t either. He wonders if she hears him. He wonders if she dreams.

VI.

Waking up. Awake. She holds his hand and the dreams are real.